Not so sweet.

So, 15th out of 120 sounds pretty good, right?
Wrong.
it is a 16s division, and I am a Jr.
Strike one.
i played right side, and hardly did anything to help.
Strike two.
i played 16s last year.
Strike three.
(redemtion perhaps in the fact that i am 16)

Now, take someone who is on my school volleyball team.
Played 17s division.
Played right side on Austin Jr. Which means you're a beast.
Won the whole tournament.
Lost no games.
Will be playing next year 'with me' on varsity.

Why. Am. I. Even. Trying.

So that you may be more perfect for someone else

Thain: If you will continue to stand and be beaten on, that is your choice

What is truth, when reality is built on half a lie
and half assumption.

Buddy Wakefield

You are my insperation.
"Forgivness is the release of all hope for a better past"

I cling to you like the friends i wish i still had.
(and i stopped capitalizing my i's around you
becuase i didn't matter as much when it was singular
but it matter more when it was plurral
like We and Us
but i still slip up sometimes
becuase you make me feel
as though i'm worth the extra effort)

feels like i've wasted the past...
oh
5 years?
longer...
and i know they're not wasted
becusae everything happens with a reason
but it still feels like it

(and so i pretended to fall sleep in your arms
whilest i waited for your own breathign to slow
becuase i can't stand loosing the seconds
between us)

Love is cherrished.
Hate is forgiven.
Kindness is forgotten.
Mistakes become nothing.