Forgivness

is the release of a better past.

Yom Kippur is about forgiveness. To forgive, and to ask for forgiveness.

I feel as though I have very much to do on either side of that equation, and would like to do it in my own way. As symbolically as possible.

I forgot to fast today...but I feel as though I should fast once I feel as though I'm ready to turn this new chapter of life. Therefore, on Monday I shall fast.

I would like to ask forgiveness.

And I hope to receive it, as I do feel like a new person. Like I'm more mature and becoming better with each day.

I would like to give forgiveness.

As I do not hold grudges, but quietly and perpetually try to understand another side to the situation. I grant forgiveness to those I believe deserve it, and really: it is all people who I may be slightly bitter to.

To an extent.

Those who harm my friends, especially my sister, are not yet forgiven completely. And I'm sorry for that. I just cannot find it in myself yet to forgive them for their actions and the struggles they have put her through. I mean them no ill. I simply will wait until they prove themselves worth of her and my forgiveness.